Sharing confusion (and every now and then some clarity)

For the last few weeks, I removed any trace of this blog from my online profiles and even changed the settings to Private (a blog for me – just me – the glee). I did this because I felt that my lack of regular posts reflected poorly on my professionalism and level of engagement. Today I took the bold step of putting my blog address back into my Twitter profile, and after having done some grading, I feel like writing a post, which is a great feeling.

I have always said that I must know why I am doing something, and I must feel motivated to make the time to do it. This blog has been an on/off love affair, and I still don’t feel like it is the space I have wanted it to be. But I also am slowly accepting that perhaps I have been putting too much emphasis on what others will know, learn and understand about me by reading what I write. This blog must be for me, first and foremost. It is a strange thing to grasp, the idea that writing in public is actually a private process. I do feel, however, that I want to say something, and that I will burst if I don’t start expressing myself. The act of writing ideas down is a pressure valve, and I think for me a process in which I can attempt to clarify what I feel about what I read and experience on a daily basis. It has taken some time (I started this blog in September 2014), but I think that I have finally realised what this is for. I have, possibly subconsciously, been feeling that I should be writing and sharing my astute answers to the issues in education. It is time for me to share my confusion and maybe, every now and then, my clarity.

I am still not happy with the way the blog looks, the title etc etc, but I can’t keep finding reasons why I should not be writing. I started the process based on a belief that this could be valuable. What I have been muddling my way towards is – what does valuable mean for me?

Thank you to Scott McLeod via Mike Crowley for the challenge to contribute to the #makeschooldifferent stream of thoughts. The spark of interest the post received has made me look at my blog again, and paradoxically the attention has made me realise that I shouldn’t worry about the attention; if I write down what I think and engage with others about issues that affect education, then I am growing and learning, and that is all that is important.

7 thoughts on “Sharing confusion (and every now and then some clarity)

  1. Mike Crowley April 22, 2015 / 4:49 am

    Well said, Paul! That really sums up a lot of how I have felt. I also started out thinking, who is this for, then realising that I simply enjoyed expressing myself. Thereafter, people like Scott and others were good enough to start sharing my posts and – while I may not have been saying anything essentially new in many instances – I felt part of a shared conversation because I was sharing what I believed. You write so well and reflect so honestly that you should keep it going, but on you own terms.


  2. Scott McLeod April 22, 2015 / 5:01 am

    “I do feel, however, that I want to say something, and that I will burst if I don't start expressing myself”

    I feel this way if I don't blog for a day or two. 'Pressure valve' is a great term. I have so many ideas floating around in my head I feel like it's going to pop. My blog is a way to get those out and archive them for my future learning / reference. The fact that others are willing to share their thoughts, give me feedback, spread to others, etc. is just a well-appreciated bonus!

    Keep on blogging! 🙂


  3. Paul Turner April 22, 2015 / 5:06 am

    Thanks for the encouragement Mike. Your generosity in supporting others is so appreciated.


  4. Paul Turner April 22, 2015 / 5:07 am

    Thanks Scott! For a man who probably gets tagged on endless tweets, you are incredible at making contact and providing encouragement – champion!


  5. Scott McLeod April 22, 2015 / 5:11 am

    I try. It's supposed to be SOCIAL media, right? 😉


  6. Brad Moyle April 22, 2015 / 2:20 pm

    Great post, Paul. I enjoy your blog and agree that you write well. Keep it up!


  7. Paul Turner April 22, 2015 / 2:27 pm

    Thanks for the encouragement Brad. I look forward to keeping contact with you long distance.


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